||Sunday, December 10, 2006||
dreaming with a broken heart. | 12/10/2006 11:17:00 pm
---I made a wish upon a fallen star.
Like it,my dream was shattered.
Now,I gotta learn to pick up the pieces alone.--- moonstricken again.
Reality slapped me on friday evening. I was working as usual. There was this moment,i was left alone at my cashier counter as my colleagues were busy with their own stuffs. Nothing to do, i picked up the phone and i dialled 9880722.....I stopped immediately when i realised it was Dennis's (my ex bf's) number. I put down the phone to think. For the past 1 year plus, i have been attached to someone,both physically and mentally. It was a habit to dial that number first whenever and wherever i feel that i needed someone. It was like my own special 18oo helpline.
For the first time in 21 months,i felt alone. With nobody to fall back on,just myself to deal with all the emotions.this time,i'm alone.I started rumaging through my brain,who should i call to talk to,and i only came up with three names. They're Kim,Jamin and the other shall remain unknown. These three people are the closest people to me and i treasure them most.i want to include them in whatever i do and whatever i'm thinking. So i started to dial unknown's number.Half way dialling,i put down the phone again.i decided not to call him so abruptly as he might be too busy to entertain me. So i called Jamin. Half way dialling, i put down the phone again. i realised he's not free on friday nights as he will be having some church sessions. Of course, the next one would be Kim. We talked on the phone for about a few pathetic minutes and i gotta hang up cos' there were already a queue forming up in front of the cashier.
Digressing a lil' bit here.
Anyway,Helplines.Have you ever wondered,how many Helplines do you have?
Well, people may enter your life easily and make life really hard for you when they leave suddenly.
People may tend to pretend they're there for you and put on a fake smile when they see you.You'll never know.People may be nice to you in a minute and the next minute they're bitching behind your back.You'll never ever know too. So i guess i have to say, dont believe a person that easily,one might be there for a moment and be gone for the next.
Be on guard and watch your back.
With my Helplines decreasing to 2, i finally know what's a loss.With my hopes decreasing to zero, i finally learn how to face the world alone again. I've seriously learnt my lessons.
Erica Janael.
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