||Monday, January 23, 2006||
i want to let u know... | 1/23/2006 07:23:00 pm

have you listen to lee hom's new song? Kiss Goodbye? no? listen to it.my tears started rolling down my cheeks n my nose turn runny when i heard this song. well,it doesnt really says bout things that had happened to me n my only love but it still is sad enough for me to start tearing.somehow, there are some connections between me and this song.i love it.even though i feel damn horrible when i hear this song.i still love it.rites,enough bout the song.now let's start toking bout me.

well,to people erica maybe strong,to people erica maybe cheerful n funny.but to myself,when i look into the mirror i know that i'm actually not what i seem to be.i'm easily defeated by the power of love.lately,i ran into some problems with my only love.i noe he hates me now.and all the things i do just disgusted him.but am still trying.the power of love just got me.it made me do incredible things that the normal erica dont.it also can make erica turn into a foolish n dumb person.well, to me waiting for someone i love for more than 2 hours at the beach at night n hoping he will come is not dumb.it's desperate.to those who wants to know whther did he turn up?i'm sorry to disappoint you,he didnt. he disappoint me too.but,hey,i'm still fighting in this cold war.i'm still struggling and i will not give up at this period of time.this love made me do stupid things, but i dont care if i need to do a million stupid things just to get him back.

if u can see dar,i really love you lah..i dunno whther u can sense that i'm actually sad n sorry that i agitated u soo much that day until now.i noe u are already sick n tired of me saying all these but please understand that all that it's here is nothing but the truth.i'm not going to give u up cos u noe why.u noe that i'm all yours.nobody can replace u ever again.that's y i wanted to tattoo ur name on my back.i want to let u noe that u're really my one n only.believe me trust me.i am so afraid that one day u will just call or msg me ''let's break up''. i'm really very scared of that to happen.i dun wan it to happen.i'm so scared u will tell me u lose feeling s bout me,u hate me n dun like me anymore.i am really serious with u.i've nv been so clear so serious with anyone.u should noe it better than anyone.even though how many friends told me u're not worth it,i will still defy their wills and still hang on.well,none of my friends said that u're worth it but the most important thing is i noe u're the best of the best for me.
dar...give me one more chance..give urself one more chance.i'm always asking u for more chance.if only u're reading this.

Erica Janael.

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