||Sunday, November 08, 2009||
you seem so long ago... | 11/08/2009 01:11:00 am

the Damien Rice's song is stuck in my head and it wont leave me alone till i straighten up my thoughts.

Very often i find myself thinking back the things i did. It's like life didnt slow down on me at all. Many things rushed by and sometimes so fast that i didnt even have time to take a good look at them. Just like texting on the phone for example, i wouldnt just let it go after i sent a "quickly-typed" text, i've got this sick habit of reading the same text that i've just sent 2 or 3 times before reassuring myself that "yes, that's just what i meant".

Well, life for me has been this way for awhile.

Sitting on the bus on my way home this afternoon, i remembered certain images of the recent birthday party my family had for all the November babies ( they only do that in November and not any other months! :( ! ). And those images started triggering memories of not so long ago, when i was a little bigger than i am now, those times with Imran to be exact and soon, i found myself way back on the timeline in 2007 , when i'm still with my ex. Suddenly, i thought,"wait a minute, where did i started?", and i worked back on the timeline again, finding myself tapping my ez-link card and moving through the half-empty (or half-full, depends on how you want to look at it (: ) bus, settled down on a seat just by a wide window.

I wonder how many of you experience this too.

CLOSER. the movie i just watched on demand for free. talked about love and sex between 4 strangers. LOVE SEX STRANGERS. oh, what a fantastic combination. I have always doubted that movie, i had the DVD, i watched it half-way on channel 5 but never so much finish watching it. "DAMNED." i thought. Here's a chance and since it's a saturday night and i'm home and i need some recreational activity, so fuck it. I'll sit and let the show humor me. And IT DID. Instaneously, i know JUDE LAW CAN TOTALLY SEX ME NOW. haha..i apologize for the bimbotic moment but it only goes to show how hot he is!

After an hour into the show, i know this is the movie i'm going to get stuck on to for the rest of my life. I'm going to be obssess in it, i'm going to learn every line (if i could and have the time (: ) and i'm going to watch it over and over again. The reason is Jude Law, no. (Well, to be honest, not only that). It's not how horny Clive Owen can seem to be, not how beautiful and weird Julia Robert's laughter is , certainly not how HAWTE Natalie Portman actually is and how needy and handsome and charming (i could go on for a thousand years) Jude Law potrayed his character or just the way he looked like.

It was the different ways love exists in the movie that survived me through the 100mins. I learnt,not only how love can seem to be, but also the different ways it can haunt a person and take on their lives. Some love are selfish, some worship sex as love, and for the others they love because believed it's true.

Life was referred to a big fat lie , in the movie. The luring truth is that it is true. We pretend to create beauty but foolish enough not to realise that the beauty we adore, are beautifully told and concealed lies.

maybe,just maybe, ponder on that....

Once again at the end of a very very long day, i stopped to wonder about what we could have turned into. I went to many places with my mind and tried to pick up from where we left. And then i realized, we seemed so long ago. That's when i started leaving because i know now, there's nothing in those places anymore.

Did i say that i loathe you?
Did i say that i want to leave it all behind? - Damien Rice, The Blower's Daughter

Erica Janael.

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